I wish I was at the hospital today taking Emy’s 7 month pictures. The nurse and I would discuss what swaddle and bow would look best. Her pink bunny would be next to her with a “7 month” sticker on its belly. A lot of pictures would be taken from what I would think are many angles but end up not much different from each other. I would take her pink memory book out and write about the milestones she met, her like and dislikes, and any surgeries she underwent.
It’s easier not to think about— my brain is trying to protect me from the pain of her loss. She deserves my attention— I wish my brain didn’t try to keep her out. That’s the only way she exists now in this world— in memories. My baby is with Jesus.
Baby Menon 
That is so hard. I can’t even begin to understand the pain you feel. We love you so much. You are not forgotten. We remember you and pray for you every day. Faith prays for you every night before bed.
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Oh my sweet friends. I think of you so often. Don’t be afraid to “test out” various forms of grieving until you find what feels best for you. For my losses a grief group didn’t help, but reading other people’s memoirs & engaging in rituals helps – for you it might be something different & that’s perfectly normal. Love you.
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Hi Becky,
Back in May we sent you a check that we were hoping you could use for funeral and living expenses. It hasn’t been cashed yet, so we were wondering if you ever got it. We followed all of your blogs, and attended the funeral via zoom. We are so sorry for your loss. It was so evident from your posts, the joy EmyG brought into your life.
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Hi Uncle Arthur,
Thank you for the card, check and cross gift. We received it, but have not deposited it yet. We haven’t gone through the things associated with her loss. We will deposit the check very soon— I’m sorry we haven’t connected with you sooner. Thank you for following Emy’s journey. We wish she was still with us, but God had another plan for her. We are very thankful for the outpouring of love and support. She was so loved and is very missed.
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Becky,
I am heartbroken by the loss of your little Emmy G. There truly are no words for this kind of pain. If you’d ever like a listening ear I’m here, one broken mama heart to another. Sending so much love to you and wishing you strength for today. This journey is so very hard.
Please feel free to send me an email anytime. lisakoch09@gmail.com
Lisa Koch(Chinander)
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Lisa, thank you for reaching out. And thank you and your mom for sending the gift card back in December— I’m very behind with my gratitude.
It is the worst club to be in, but I am thankful I am not alone in this loss. Thanks for reaching out and for your support. Our littles are missed every day.
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